I kid you not, as I was looking at these pictures thinking of what I wanted to write, Isaac projectile vomited on my face, in my mouth and all over my chest... I couldn't help but start to laugh. He is such a sweet, easy going baby though. I think his only flaw is that he barfs a lot. And that's really my fault because he's on formula...my bad.
I do hate venting, but sometimes in the moment you're doing it, it feels good to get it out. I only hate it because I don't like putting out negative energy....but there are a couple things that have totally been bugging me. I do really love both of them. Here goes...Monet has seriously been driving me crazy!! I have this completely easy, adorable baby who really needs very little attention. Then, I have Monet. Who I obviously love more than anything, but she is the most needy, frustrating child in the world!! I set her up with painting, she paints all over the wall. I set her up with toys, she wants to climb all over me, pull my hair, squeeze my cheeks. Not in a nice way. She's been doing this thing where she wakes up in the night crying and I try to ask her what she needs. She just continues to cry and it escalates into a scream for about 15 minutes. A whaling screem. Isaac sleeps 8-10 hours at night. Sometimes, Monet will wake up three times at night. I get so mad and then I look at her and I feel so bad for feeling angry towards her. I'm sure she's acting out for obvious reasons. I just can't wait for her to grow out of it already.
Okay, next venting subject. I love Robby very, very, very much. He is such a good dad and husband. I feel very lucky. But, yesterday, he left for work at 630 am and got home after 9 pm. If he was making money that would be worth working those long hours, I might say it was worth it. But, he's not. When I'm with the kids all day by myself, I know I'm not the best mom. And, it makes me resentful. Then, I start feeling sorry for myself and it goes on into a downward spiral.
Anyways, I am done venting now. Ahh, much better.
Some good news is that I bought a really good used double jogger. It is very light and easy to push. Today was my first day jogging since the c-section and I used the ipod and everything. I was actually sweating! It felt so good.